Diam

Diam,

Pilihan atau alasan

Pilihan untuk baiknya masing2

Alasan utk baiknya dia sorang

Yg aku sekarang pilihan utk baiknya dia seorang

Hati aku xmengapa xterjaga

Ia dh biasa , sangat biasa

Walau aku xbiasa DIAM

Walau aku xbiasa tiada dia

Tapi aku akan DIAM

 

bukan sebab Alasan

Tapi ia pilihan

Moga aku kuat melalui fasa DIAM

Shes back!!

assalammualaikum salam ahad dan selamat hari raya eidulfitri kepada yg berpuasa..yg xpuase tanpa sebab sohih kau jgn nak perasan aku wish ari raya kat kau..sila malu dgn diri sendiri...  

blog dh lame xhapdate, tempoh beberapa bulan macam  berpuluh tahun...nak cakap busy xjugak, tapi ada benda yg lagi penting nak di uruskan...(alasan yg nyata ialah MALAS)..

Few months back banyak betul yg jadik, semua nye yg aku xpenah expect pon akan jadik but thru all the bad day i still stand still sebab aku percaya Allah uji aku bersebab...aku rase ujian yg aku dapat ne xdela besar sgt mcm org lain yg lagi teruk teruk tiada yg teruk melainkan yg teruk belaka..wakaka, berpusing nak membaca..

Okla, just a simple intro after a long vacation...

Bye,till we meet again ;)

Jiwa sentap

Manusia lahir dengan satu  perasaan iaitu 'penat ' atau 'letih'...tau x ape mksd penat?? Minah blonde pggl penat exhausted...okay, bila manusia dh lahir dgn perasaan ini bermaksud manusia akan ade perasaan ini sepanjang hidup dorang...regardless of anything happen in life mesti akan relate dgn this term 'penat'..for example, I buat scenarios utk pahamkan..
Scenario 1
Atan: kenapa awak xdtg keje smlm?
Atin: sebab sy PeNAT buat benda yg same.

Scenario 2
Amad: kenapa awak xdrive pg keje? Ssh2 naik tren
Ain: sbb sy PENAT nk drive everyday

Scenario 3
Ah chong:kenapa lu langgaq belakang keta gua?
Siew ling: sebab gua PENAT tgu lu jln lembab sgt..

Okay x?? Dh paham x kite gune term PENAT ne almost everyday in our life..
so skrg ape kaitan title post ngn aku pulak ne? Banyak kaitan..aku dh kumpul banyak sgt penat n skrg aku nak muntahkan sekali dlm 1 blog n explain to whole bunch of people yg kadang2 buat gaya macam paham tapi sebenarnya dorang xpaham..ne aku nak bg paham lagi skali, mntk perhatian..

Aku penat nk explain bnda yg same setiap kali..ape tujuan aku buat semuanya bersebab..kenapa kau pilih nk ddk rumah sewa instead of ddk dgn fmly? Sbb kau nak rase hidup berdikari be more independent kan? Cliche nye jawapan...hahah..teett..salah..aku bg jwpn yg lagi terus dr ati...sebab kau nak space..bile kau blk lmbt dr keje, mak kau xrisau kat rumah..xkeep calling tanya dkt mane buat ape dgn sape..kau xnak mak kau tggu kau blk keje everyday n kau nak buang rase bersalah bilamana kau blk keje lambat n apetite nak mkn dh xde tp mak kau madak mcm2 utk kau mkn..kau kena mkn sbb nk jaga hati mak kau sbb dye ssh payah masak n kau xmkn..ataupun kalau dh krobik sgt kau akan bubgkus lauk n bawak bekal esojnye...slalunye aku terjebak dlm optio yg kedua tu..kau nak elak kan mak kau pk kau pergi bersuria party larut mlm bilamana kau tgh bersengkang mata mengadap pc pastu berjalan kaki 10minit ke tren, menempuh lebih dari 10 stesen untuk smpi rmh..smpi stesen kat rmh kau kena drive lg..phewwwwwww....life is tough...lagi tough kalau kau xdpt support dr org terdekat by understanding..all those question yg kau rase sgt annoy nk jawap bilamana kau tgh sibuk buat keje...memangla org ckp sibuk mana pon kite jgn abaikan mak bapak...tapi wahai parent, sibuk kami disini kerana nak bagi kamu kamu kesenangan dihari raya..wishlist yg diusulkan kamu kamu terlalu panjang jadi kami mencarik alternatives lain untuk dpt duit lebih..untuk siapa?? Untuk kamu wahai parent..nowadays anak2 stay in rumah sewa bkn sebab nak bebas saja saja...kalau nak kaitkan soal bebas, anak2 boleh lagi bebas kalau ddk dgn parent..mcm2 lg anak2 blh buat if they want..ape yg beza kat cne cara penerimaan n bawak diri..selalu ingat who you are everywhere u go..inshaAllah kite akan sentiasa jauh dr bnda2 yg xsepatutnya..tlgla paham sebab anak dh penat nak explain dh wahai parent..anak doing well here tp mengapa parent perlu mengganggu emosi anak dgn those mesg yg buat anak xboleh keje?? Anak mencari rezeki yg halal disana..mengapa parent2 perlu meragui ape yg anak2 buat..kalau parent perlu bukti, trs saja dtg keopis anak2 n jmpe boss anak2..interview sendiri mcm mana sshnye keje anak2..tp nnt org ckp mcm bdk tadika la pulak..smpi nk dtg opis bagai..parent2 blh dtg sepot check rmh sewa anak2..geledah slrh 1 rmh crk ape yg parent2 nak..tp cara mcm tu akan buat anak2 rasa trk...betapa parent xpercayakan anak2 n juga anak2 xnk parent tgk keadaan rmh sewa yg xckp selesa seperti rmh sendiri, kami xnak parent2 rase sedih atau simpati dgn kami.itu sangat biasa bg rmh sewa parent2..bg penyewa, asalkan ade basic thing untuk hidup kami dh ckp Alhamdulillah..tp kalau itu yg boleh hilangkan gundah gulana parent2 ape salahnya..dtg saja, anak2 menanti dgn dada n hati yg terbuka kan kan..(smbl kelam kabut kutip baju kotoq pg basuh, kemas katil terabuq sana sini, cuci pinggan dlm sink, sapu bilik siap sembur air freshner) muahahhahaha..biasela parent, bilik bujang.. okay satu explaination

okay..yg kedua penat aku related dgn hati dan peghasaan..amboii ayat cintan cintun..aku penat nak tunggu org..itu sebenanye aku nak sampaikan..aku rase spnjg aku bercinta ne aku je yg slalu jdk dominant..aku je yg slalu hover..nk buat itu n ini dgn ex2 sblm ne..semua aku yg eksaited gile babs pny..dorang chill je aku tgk..ehhh geram..asek aku je yg eksaited, korang bile nye nk eksaited?? Hah jwpn kpd soalan ne bia aku jawap sndri..korang akan eksaited bile korang dh hilang org tu..bile korang dh xrase semua bnda yg ex korang slalu eksaited buat utk korang sblm ne..apela yg peliknye pemikiran korang ne..aku musykil smpi skrg...

Jadi, bile dh penat aku memilih untuk stay away..jauhkan diri..bg space sbb aku tau mnsia mmg prlukan space in conjunction to make decision..aku pilih diamkan diri dan perhati..smpi 1 masa bile penat aku dh smpi ketahaap yg lg kronik iaitu 'malas'..
Tu lg ssh nk handle..

Okay, tu je nk jemah..nk kms umah bsh bj..malangnye xde bibik utk buat semua ne..muehehe.
Assalammualaikum korang...
Selamat berbuka puasa pkl 7.28pm karang bkn skrg okay

When I start to put on silent n writing more

Assalammualaikum. .its been a while since my last update..hurgggghhhh, been very busy adapting to new environment. .working under Singapore management is not as easy as I think it was at d first place..a lot of dont than do, we are also not encourage to speak other language than english in the office or the top management will hv the weird look at you..so rule created to be follow, they lead we follow..almost 2month coping the tensioness n today I lost to my stupid feeling..morning start work like usuall
,tension pertama start when check email..yesterday I was absence from work so the email throw in my inbox more than 50. I was like!!! Baru xbkk email sehari dh byk gitu, cmnela kalau I amek block leave for 2weeks nnt...then nk check email berguna, xberguna, rubbish, everything dh amek masa lame kat ctu..pstu nk dkt lunch hv 2 attend this 1 customer yg converse in malay..yaAllah, dugaan betull..baikla I convey english dr malay yg berterabur tah pape yg I pg ckp ngn cstmr..huwarghhh..malay is my mother tongue, tp since when I sgt bo#$& malay ne. ?? Tension bertambah bila cstmr xpaham bhsa melayu aku..ahhh, lantak ahh korang..so skrg aku playsafe, aku dpt cstmr yg nk diattend dlm bhsa melayu, dgn sepantas kuda aku ckp sory sir, im unable to converse in malay..muahahahha...hmmmmmmm...aku kesedihan ne..tlg someone, pahami aku please..aku nk org paham ape yg aku nak actually..ssh btl nk dpt org yg blh phm kite..but I trust to keep strong when everything seem to goes wrong..thats all. Im done merapu n im tired bersabar n Im done being loyal waiting for you..thats all okdhby3

what make me feel good

Think about them one at a time BEFORE going on to the next one...

IT DOES MAKE YOU FEEL GOOD, especially the thought at the end.



 1. Falling in love.
 2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.
 3. A hot shower.
 4. No lines at the supermarket
 5.A special glance
 6. Getting mail
 7.Taking a drive on a pretty road.
 8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio.
 9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.
11. Finding the sweater you want is on sale for half price.
12. Chocolate milkshake. (or vanilla!) (or strawberry)
13. A long distance phone call.
14. A bubble bath.
15. Giggling.
16. A good conversation.
17 The beach
18. Laughing at yourself.
19. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
20. Running through sprinklers.
21. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
22. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.  ( iloveit..muahahahaha)
23. Laughing at an inside joke.
24. Friends.
25. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice   about you.
26.Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
27. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
28 Playing with a new bengal(meow meow).
29. Having someone play with your hair.
30. Sweet dreams.
31. Hot chocolate.
32.Road trips with friends.
33. Swinging on swings.
34. Wrapping presents for ur birthday.
35.Song lyrics printed inside your new CD so you can sing along without feeling stupid.
36. Going to a really good concert.
37. Making eye contact with a cute stranger
38.Winning a really competitive game.
39. Making chocolate chip cookies and bread pudding
40. Having your friends send you homemade cookies.
41. Spending time with close friends.
42. Seeing smiles and hearing laughter from your friends.
43. Holding hands with someone you care about.
44.Running into an old friend and realizing that some things ( good or bad ) never change. 
45. Riding the best roller coasters over and over.
46.Watching the _____ expression on someone's face as they open  a much desired present from you.
47. Watching the sunrise.
48. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.
49.Friends are quiet angels who lift us to our feets when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly.


LIFE IS SHORT SO ENJOY YOUR LIFE TO THE FULLEST

Rindunya dengan budak 2 ekor ne,bff  @ cimb T___T

kepochi kembali

Finally,aku jumpa jalan pulang..bukan lupa blog password tapi mood nak mengkarut semakin menipis lately,aishhh perassan yg biadap..If dulu aku boleh meng-nagging everyday kat sini,tapi now eventhough ade free time (most probably during office hour) still,kemalasan tu mengatasi nafsu untuk mengarut..aku lagi prefer utk blogwalking to blog2 kak filla(blog yg aku paling suka baca sebab dye ne gila2 macam aku gak n paling penting,kaki makan cam aku..yeayyyyy,geng!),sigojes hanis zalikha n blog sigila maria hana(ex-classmate form5)...
Tu jela rutin harian aku sejak sejak penyakit malas menular dalam diri ne..hah, ne pon aku dh rasa penat menaip sebab penyakit malas dh start,tapiiiii...aku kuatkan diri,tanam dlm diri by today aku msti post 1 entry sbb sebenanye aku nak share ngn korang 1 skincare product from korea yg amazingly the best..(ignore my grammar please)
Patutnya semalam aku dh post entry pasal skincare product tu,tp disebabkan kebiadapan memory card camera aku,things doesnt go as planned..Abes ranap semua picx yg aku snap smlm,mmry card tu boleh plak tetiba corrupted..what the heckkkk..aku tertonggeng2 snap picx,skill kalah amateur last2 kau ilangkan semua picx aku dlm tu...sabarlah wahai hati..bukan senang nak senang..T__T
Kesudahannya, back 2 basic jela..guna bb capture product tu...memangla kualiti is way too far from what im expecting,tapi dh short time plus aku malas nak mengadap dslr tu lagi,leceh,rimas,lemas, jadi terimala seadanya..
Okay,aku nak pg mengedit ape yg patut kat post skincare product tu,later in afternoon aku up untuk korang yg tersayangss...
Tata,muah2

aku

aku mudah merasakan, tapi sukar meluahkan

aku mudah mengharapkan,tapi sukar melepaskan

aku mudah memaafkan,namun sukar melupakan

bahagiakanla aku dengan menjadikan aku satu satunya cintamu

atau biarkanla  aku berbahagia tanpamu :)